I feel like all my posts have been so depressing lately. I have been extra sad and have had the hardest time holding on to hope. But there is so much for me to be thankful for. Monday I go down to Medford to see my old hematologist and to start getting all my treatments and care down there. She has always been there for me and eager to help whenever. I’m going to be seeing the drs down there instead of the ones up here. It’s crazy how big of a difference the care is here. I just can’t wait to get real help. I’ll get my treatments from my favorite nurses who I love so much and have treated me beyond loving all these years. I actually trust them with touching my body. The majority up here have not done a very good job…. Ugh so bad. Thankfully Rousseaux is right beside me to remind me to be kind 🙂 I can be a little forceful and ungracious when doing the hospital thing.
I’m currently in the hospital getting a treatment. Praying this lasts in my body longer than usual. I haven’t had bruising like this in almost a year. Yikes. People ask how I get my bruises. I normally tell them just from breathing. Which is a joke… For those who don’t know my humor. I’m either crying or making jokes about all of this. I prefer joking.
I’m seeing a GI Dr for the first time at the end of this month. Im really hoping he finds some answers to all my crazy miserable symptoms. The newest neurologist I saw said that something is clearly wrong with me. I was so excited because he actually acknowledged that something was wrong….then he said he’ll see me in two weeks. No tests..nothing. That was kinda when I hit my breaking point with the drs here.
My body longs to be free of this. My heart does too. My hearts never longed for heaven so bad. No more sickness, pain or tears. How amazing is that?