Mayo Clinic

Well, I just applied at the Mayo Clinic in Florida, but honestly I’d go wherever they could get me in. I know they’ve helped so many people actually figure out where there sickness is coming from and treat it..and cure it. I’ve had so many people these past couple months encouraging me to go and I really feel led to go. I’m hoping and praying that they see me as someone they can help and get me in. I’m desperate.
These past couple months of this new sickness has brought my joy down so low. It’s been so hard for me to have hope. That’s what everyone’s been encouraging me with, but after 11 years and then this new sickness that they can’t figure out what I frankly feel hopeless. There’s so many dreams I have that I just don’t think will ever happen. Either because of death…which I know is hard to hear. I’ve never really been afraid of dying from all of this until lately. But hearing my Dr up north say he’s surprised I’m still alive every time he walked in the room maybe has me shooken up. Or I’m afraid my dreams will never happen because I’m frankly just too dang sick and tired to to anything. To really live! I aspire to travel the world with Rous, to have an incredibly cute store with my mom, be a free people model, to meet Ellen Degenerous (that woman made me laugh during times when I didn’t think laughing was possible), to be able to have organizations that can help other people going through sicknesses financially and to bring them joy in other ways. I want to live and make a difference in this world. Not feel sick and cry of sadness daily.
I know that the Lord gave us all that money that so many dear people donated for a reason. I’m hoping with everything in me that that reason is for healing. To get to the Mayo Clinic. Get everything covered.. Bills, a place to stay, flight, food. I know I don’t need to stress, that I need to trust. It’s just a hard thing to do right now. I’m going to want someone to go with me (if I get in) but not sure who would… Rous and my mom have to work and my dad has school. I will need support from someone. To laugh with and make jokes during a time like that. I know the Lord has someone perfect!
Thank you again for all the love and support I’ve been shown. I’ve never needed it so much in my life.

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4 thoughts on “Mayo Clinic

  1. Paul R Watson

    I hope that this is the incredibly strong woman I had the opportunity to meet at providence hospitjust a few days ago. I’m the broken man with constant knee issues. I was not flirting, but admiring you working hard to move those crutches, like I have done three different times, and thanks to Riber, I can try to have a life that has meaning, and after 10 long painful years, I stand as a man when getting off that elevator, funny we should catch the same one…. you looked me in my eyes and inspired a little hope with those gold specks around those eyes, I finally get hope. I’m not Mr creepy or any of those things, I felt something I have not felt in a long time. A warehouse shelf fell on me and crushed my knee. Two botched surgeries, yet I still fight to be normal. I hope you are the blonde with the gold speckled eyes.. your Mom had a burgundy Durango. I ask nor want anything, maybe a little advice and a good chat will do. my Facebook is Paul Watson. own Redkite Lawnpros. I’m not a loser despite whatever hand has dealt me, I play my cards. I hope this you. please, have the courage, I think we could be pals. something special is in you as well as I. I want to give up, but seing those crutches, and yet you refused any help, inspired me. Your hip and leg, man I complain about my knee. please if this is you, get in touch. I won’t let you down, in fact I’m a healer and real easy to talk to. I would like to talk to you, hope I have the right woman. if not, then go girl, you can do it you can do it all night long. I’m a sucker for Adam Sandlers movies. Underdog can come out on top. I know its early, my leg keeps me up all night long.

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  2. {Raising Whole Families}

    Hi Hannah, I don’t know you personally but I’m a fellow Hannah and sisters with Rachel downing. Was just reading some of your story and praying for you. You may have already gone, but bethel church down in Redding has healing prayer rooms on Saturday mornings and I just felt led to share that with you. You may have already been but it’s an amazing place where the sweet, refreshing presence of God has met me many times in such a tangible way.
    Praying and believing for your complete healing!!!

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  3. smeg756

    Hannah, as always, my prayers are with you. I know that sickness can suck the joy out of everything and how hard it is to rise above the fog. I know that the Lord has a special plan in all this for you and I hope that you get into the clinic so they can find out whats going on with you. Know that you are loved, and that y prayers and thoughts are with you.

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